To write love on her arms♥

My name is Gabrielle Vincenzia Mancuso, and i am the shit.
questions?
I just want to go to sleep at a normal time, and sleep the whole night through for once. that would be nice. To not wake up with bags under my eyes bigger then the day before. To feel myself getting more and more irritable as every day goes by. Im not sure when the last time I went to bed before midnight was, or even 3, or even 5 am was. I dont sleep. I lay awake thinking of everything, and of nothing. I lay awake reading these books and wishing I had lives like the people in them. im sad and Im mad at absolutely nothing and at the same time everything and anything. Everything anyone does or says hurts me. And there is not one single thing that helps; not therapy, not medicine, not alcohol, not cigarettes, not friends, not family— nothing. And I am so so so tired of fighting what feels like the inevitable. Is giving up really that bad?

I just want to go to sleep at a normal time, and sleep the whole night through for once. that would be nice. To not wake up with bags under my eyes bigger then the day before. To feel myself getting more and more irritable as every day goes by. Im not sure when the last time I went to bed before midnight was, or even 3, or even 5 am was. I dont sleep. I lay awake thinking of everything, and of nothing. I lay awake reading these books and wishing I had lives like the people in them. im sad and Im mad at absolutely nothing and at the same time everything and anything. Everything anyone does or says hurts me. And there is not one single thing that helps; not therapy, not medicine, not alcohol, not cigarettes, not friends, not family— nothing. And I am so so so tired of fighting what feels like the inevitable. Is giving up really that bad?

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Im so tired of people shoving their happily ever afters down my throat. Like oh your son, my ex boyfriend, and his new girlfriend have their newest pictures on facebook? GREAT NEWS im so glad you told me how in love they are, it doesnt hurt at all. Your getting married and doing swell with someone else’s family after you left us — glad to know, that doesnt break my heat at all. your best friend is amazing , well fuck you too , i wasnt a great friend to you or anything. you have the greatest 4 friends ever? Yeah it should be five but good for you! is there a line i can draw where i can finally stop acting like im peachy? cause im really tired of this little charade.

and now I have to sit around listening to people mention you and talk about you and act like everytime they say your name it doesnt break my heart. Because I’ll never let anyone ever know how much I still care for you.

and now I have to sit around listening to people mention you and talk about you and act like everytime they say your name it doesnt break my heart. Because I’ll never let anyone ever know how much I still care for you.

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